Project description

Through this body of work I wanted to portray the inner psychological experience of the very 'subtle but persistent feeling of being out of place' - monachopsis - often experienced by some members of a displaced or gentrified community. Through visual storytelling, the character within this set of images portrays both the familiar and unfamiliar. Monachopsis manifests itself in the inability to feel comfortable within new circumstances, and produces an underlying feeling of anxiety. This discomfort leaves a person feeling detached and drawn inwards into their own thoughts, despite their surroundings. The Polaroid images taken by the subject herself, in collaboration with me, are there as the 'familiar' attached to memories, in an attempt by the character to suppress uncomfortable thoughts or feelings. As with the complexities faced by both communities and urban planners, someone experiencing monachopsis lacks the ability to see a clear route to a more comfortable situation, and a process has to take place. A feeling most of us have at sometime experienced, and can relate to.

We are all intrinsically bound by the spaces we inhabit and the places we go. Knowing this, reassures me that I am not alone.

Interior Photograph

In search of knowing I hesitate

Portrait of Natalie Hotchkiss.

A shared experience recollected by one.

Portrait of Natalie Hotchkiss

A series of afterthoughts somewhere out in the ether.

Interior Photograph

Confronted by my own memory, I wait

Portrait of Natalie Hotchkiss

I can only imagine to the extent of possibility.

Portrait of Natalie Hotchkiss

How do I become remembered?

Portrait o Natalie Hotchkiss

I whisper quietly to myself, waiting for a louder echo. 

Portrait of Natalie Hotchkiss
Skills & Experience
  • Nari Kallyan Shangho - Architecture Assignment - 2021
  • Dundas Street Gallery - Solace Exhibition - 2020
  • Media Education - Corporate Headshots Assignment - 2020
  • Edinburgh College of Art - 'Filling Voids' Second Year Exhibition - 2018
  • Edinburgh International Film Festival - (Press Office Volunteer) - 2018
  • FANS Youth Film Festival - Screening of 'Ethica' and 'The Ultimate Lunch' - 2018
  • Stills Gallery - Contact Young Photographers (Workshop Assistant) - 2016